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Welcome to Sad Salvation. Day by day by day by day ... this is my attempt to make sense of the world.



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Tuesday, October 30, 2007


The Hook Up


The Hook Up
Originally uploaded by earthdog.
Note to self, I am the happiest when I find the beauty and humor of the everyday world. Life is not about saving things up for the next trip or the next vacation or even the next weekend. Life it about living it everyday.

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Tuesday, September 18, 2007


First street


First street
Originally uploaded by earthdog.
often I have to remind myself to be where I am. Be here, Live here, love here, here is where you are. You would be surprised how long it takes some people to learn this lesson.

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005


Warminster and San Jose

I have been thinking about place a lot lately. On Saturday one of my sisters asked if I was ever planning to move back to the area. The first thing out of my Mother's mouth was "he does not want to live here." Up to this point of the day I had been talking to my mother about my life and my friends in San Jose. This must have been the impression she got from me. The conversation changed to another topic quickly, but that comment stuck in my head.

Last night a friend asked me if I would move back. I know she wants me to move back. She said that when she got back to Philly, she missed some of her old friends. She keeps on telling me that she would love to see me move back to Philadelphia. I told here there are three things she could do to get me to move back to Philadelphia.

1. Find me a job that I cannot refuse.
2. Set me up a woman for me to fall in love with.
3. Give me the winning lottery numbers.

There is a very high standard for number one. I really like my company. I worry that I would not be able to find a job I like in Philadelphia. I know that I never had a job as good as my job now when I lived back here. That was more then six years ago.

I think that number 3 might be easier then number 2. My friend did not say that she would be up to any of the three. I am not holding my breath.

I know I have lots of friends who have plans to escape Silicon Valley. They talk that they want to live someplace else. There are things about Silicon Valley, like the housing market, that drive my friends crazy. I have said for a long time that once my friends start leaving San Jose I might have to think about my plans.

Right now I do not know what I feel about here v. there. There is something I just love about Philadelphia. My family is here, I still have friends here, and the area is special to me. The problem is that the area might be special because I do not live here all the time.

On the other hand I like the life I have build for myself in San Jose. I work for a company I love. I have a nice circle of friends. I have met lots of new people out there. It might not be perfect, but it is something I build. That means something to me.

I am not sure how these ideas change with my father being sick. I do not know how things change going forward with his recovery. I am not sure if the draw of my family will grow because of that. I guess I will find out as time passes.

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Sunday, May 05, 2002


Simple Idea

You are only old in comparison to your achievements. Sadly, that still makes me old.

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Friday, January 25, 2002


Markers

I got my W-2 today. It is the first time I only received one W-2. For the first year of my life, I have only worked one job. I am 29 years old an this is the first year I have receiver only one W-2. I have worked at jobs for more then one year in the past. In those years I was working more then one job at a time. It seems strange to me that it took this long for me to work only one job for a year. Like a lot of other things in my life, my work history is not what I planned it to be.

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Saturday, November 10, 2001


Living Forever

I act as if I am immortal. I flirt with an odd kind of danger. The danger of a ticking clock. In some ways, it is the worst kind of danger I can deal with.

When I say I act as if I am immortal, I do not mean that I do really stupid things. I do not drive at 100 mph, do large piles of drugs, or throw my body off builds hoping my parachute opens. When I say I act as if I am immortal, I mean that I waste way too much of my own time. I act as if my clock will never run out and I have an unlimited amount of time to get things done in my life.

There are a million things that I want to. My brain is overflowing with ideas. I feel that there is a whole world of things that I could accomplish. I still do none of these thing. I let time pass like it is never going to run out. I tell myself that there will be more time for me to do everything else later.

I guess there is a weird perception thing going on here. As long as I have been alive I have been able to procrastinate. Most of the time there have been no real consequences. I have been able to finesse my way out of all those situations. Since I do not see the end of my own life, I am not worried about time running out on me.

The other hard thing is that I am the only person that cares if I do these things or not. If I never write a novel, no one will be ashamed of me. If I never clean my apartment no one will get on my case. I am the only person that cares, so my deadlines just keep on slipping. I will start this projects some other time. I will work on them when I have more energy. I will be able to focus when I am not so tied up in work. I keep on telling myself these things.

I know that time in the most precious thing in the world. I treat it like the clock will never run out. I waste my time in ways that would make other people sick. I still find new ways to numb myself to the passage of that time. I keep on telling myself that these moments will never come back after I waste them. That still does not stop me.

I write this entry because I am really scared. I am scared I am just going to late my life waste away in front of me. I am scared because I cannot find what it will take for me to get off my ass and do these things. I hope that I do not lose this battle. I hope I get going before time runs out.

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Monday, November 05, 2001


Change to Life

For weeks now, long before TiVo had layoffs, I have been thinking about reducing the amount of possessions that I own. I am starting to feel weighted down by the things that I own. I live in a studio apartment, but it will be increasingly hard for me to move from my apartment in the future. I feel that I am getting too attached to these things.

I know there are good and bad results from getting attached to possessions. I know that sometimes, attachment to possessions can help root you in a place. It can help focus you on the maintenance of that place. Those are currently two things that I do not have. I am not focused and I am not attached. I am not sure that my possessions will help me do this.

The down side of my possessions is that they tend to close me in. My possessions make me want to go and buy more possessions. They draw me to them and help me waste my time. I really do not need any more help to waste my time. I am good at wasting my time as it is right now. My possessions give me short-term enjoyment at the cost of long term accomplishment.

I am not sure when I am going to move from this apartment. It might be as soon as early next year. If I leave this apartment I will have to think about getting rid of some of my stuff. If I leave San Jose, I will think about getting rid of a great deal of my possessions. I want to think about this now while I can make a good choices. It makes me wish that I could live without owning anything. The only way I can do this is by becoming a priest. I still need to find simpler ways to live.

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