I would like to remind Bill Gates by pulling out the The Bill Gates Fountain of Dreams. I always wished that Bill Gates got to read my dream about him. Maybe he will have the time now that he is retired.
I have not had this running for a long time. Thanks to the Wayback Machine on the Internet archive
At the all star game I meet the guy from Swagtrader.com. Since July nothing has happened to that web site. I wonder if it a dream that never came true or it is was just a fraud from the start.
At Autumn's party we were talking about the back on the day on the web. Some how the conversation came back to my first web site, The Bill Gates Fountain of Dreams. I have not had it up for a while. Autumn suggested checking the Wayback Machine on the Internet archive
I did not sleep well last night. I had a dream that I was being headhunted by Yahoo. The problem is that Yahoo was being run like the government from the movie Brazil. Every time I came back to campus the structure of the company was totally different. I kept on going back because I was looking for a hidden treasure. I could not tell them what I was looking for. They kept on trying to hire me, but people who worked there wanted me to take them away from there.
I had this dream where I am sitting at a red light. My car is a convertible. I am just sitting there and waiting. This old man walks up to my car. He puts his hand on my arm and looks right in my eyes. "There are the places we are and the places that we want to be. We cannot let that difference get in our way." The light turns green and I roll ahead.
I do not know if I dreamt this or it was just a daydream. It still seems like something that is just popping around my head. I wonder how I can minimize those differences.
1.) Yes conflicting theories abound, what do you think dreams (nightly adventures) mean, or do you subscribe to a particular theorist and why? I think that dreams are wide brush ideas. If I have one dream where I am killed I do not think it really means that much. If I keep on having dreams where I am killed, it might mean something. I think that we need to look at the themes of dreams and not the actions. I can describe a dream very well not never express how it made me feel. I think we have to look at the way our dreams make us feel.
2.) When you are confronted by a homeless person asking for change, how do you respond? How does it make you feel? If you've never been in this situation, imagine it, and calculate your response. I never feel good no matter what I do. I live in a neighborhood with a fair number of homeless people. I know if I give homeless people change, it does nothing to help their situation. Most likely I am prolonging their time on the street. If you give homeless people money, there is a chance that spot will be known as a good place to panhandle. If that happens you will have more people there. On the other hand I feel that I should be doing more for them. I ask myself "what would Jesus think of me at this moment?" The last time I gave anyone money is when I was in Portland on Easter night. I know she spent the money on dinner.
3.) Do you feel you have been short changed in any way by destiny/fate/God? If so, how? I do not feel short changed. I do feel sad that I do not feel a deep relationship with God in my heart.
I have decided to use my Live Journal site as a Dream Diary. I think it is a good way to use that site. Jeremy said that he is thinking about having a group of people use Live Journal sites to start a dream collective. I really like this idea. It gives me something meaningful to put on my Live Journal. I have been having a hard time putting anything meaningful there without keeping things off Sad Salvation.
This weekend I had a dream about buying a new car. In the dream I was working for Saturn. In my mind it makes sense that Saturn and TiVo are alike in my brain. Everyone who I work with now, was also working for Saturn. One of the marketing guys was driving around with me telling me I made a good choice. I told him that I was thinking about buying a VW Bug, but I chose a Saturn. This is strange because the last couple of times I dreamt about getting a new car, I bought an old Bug. I had to take the car into the shop to get something adjusted. All the people working in the shop where from TiVo’s Quality Engineering department.
Yesterday I walked to the bicycle shop in San Jose. I knew it was somewhere south of the University, but I was not sure where. I walked down there, got the address, name and hours for the shop. I have not been good about my bicycle since I moved to San Jose. About six weeks before I left Portland I purchased a bicycle. I have only used it about six times in the past two years. I want to start using it again. I decided to get it fixed as part of cleaning up my apartment.
Last night I had a dream about riding a bicycle. In the dream I was taking a class in Horsham, PA. I have no idea what the class was about. One day I was stuck in Hatboro and had to ride a bike to get to the class. I had to ride down County Line Road in my own home town. The handle bars on the bike kept on changing shape. I kept on having to rotate the handle bars keep a grip on them. I got to the class late and the professor was really upset at me.
Today I took my bike down to Bicycle Express in San Jose. It is good to get this monkey off my back. I have been putting this off for over a year. I liked the look of the bicycle shop. Bicycle shops should look they are run by people who love bicycles, not like they are a part of a chain. Now all I have to do is ride the bike once I get it back.
I have been fighting off a cold this week. That means that I have been having fever dream. I dream hard when I am sick. I usually have dreams that I cannot explain to anyone. They do not even make sense to me. I had more then one dream last night, but only one is worth writing about.
It was a Star Wars Dream. I was with the Rebellion. We had just taken over a Empire troop transport. People were still making plans how we were going to use it. I am not clear about what the plans might be. I know that it was huge victory that we had taken over the transport. A lot of people that I work with where on the transport. Most of the call center was part of the Rebellion. Someone said that we should use the transport to sneak onto the Death Star.
Everyone that I heard sounded so arrogant. It was like they were not taking the Empire seriously. This really turned me off. I went around to explore the ship. It had a lot of gear on it. There were ground transports, weapons, uniforms, and other types of gear. We had really struck gold with this transport. I decided to spend my time looking around the ship. There was this strange smell coming out of one of the rooms. I found that a lot of people were getting high on some kind of interstellar weed. I asked them if they thought it was a bad idea. They said no. I told them that the Empire might attack us at any time. They thought I was taking this a little too seriously. I left that room right away.
There were these pre-build houses on the ship. It was almost like housing for the Storm Troopers. I was climbing around on these houses. I walk on my hands in a lot of dreams. I was walking on the roofs of these houses on my hands. I was just jumping from rooftop to rooftop. While I was doing this there were people below me running around. I looked down to see that Storm Troopers had boarded the ship and started to take it back. I tried to decide what to do. I knew I was out numbered, so I decided to surrendered.
All of the sudden I was in Don's office. I was doing a handstand on a device. He told me that the device was a project his team was working on. It would take dreams and convert them straight into C code. He told me that I was making great faces during the dream. The rest of his team laughed when he said that. I had just woke up from the Star Wars dream into another dream. I walked around Don's office and asked him about the device.
A few minutes later woke out of the second dream. That was when I realized that it was all a dream and I was not in Don's office. The same thing happened me a couple more times last night. I would go from one dream and wake up in Don's office. It might have happened five or six times last night. It is a new level of fever dream for me.
On Saturday night I had an odd dream. In the dream I was talking with a man I work with Stephen. Stephen was working on his laptop like he always does. We were talking about housing in the bay area. He told me that I was not looking had enough. If I looked hard enough I could find a condo for $150,000. He told me to search on the internet.
I know this does not sound like an odd dream. The odd thing is that two bedroom condos in San Jose start at $300,000. In the real world people would laugh at the idea I could find an Condo at 150K. The problem is that 150K is really the most that I could afford. The dream was odd because it was so normal. I usually do not have these kinds of plan conversations in dreams.
Today I looked on the internet for Condos. I did find Condos for 150K. The problem is those condos are 70 miles away from where I work. I decided a long time ago that I do not want to commute more then an hour to work every day. I do not want to anything more then an hour is adding too much extra time to my day. Even if I am not doing anything else with that time, I do not want to be in my car.
I think I know why I was having this dream. I am currently paying $900 a month rent for a studio apartment. I have recently had three conversations about people buying houses. I know that my money is not working for me by renting. I am getting to the age when I should think about buying a house. I know that I should work toward this goal.
The problem is that I am so unready to own a house. I am bad at the way I spend my money. I actually refer to myself as being in Drunken Sailor mode when it comes to spending money. I know nothing about how to buy a house. I know nothing about what kinds of things I would be responsible for. I have nowhere near the money it would take for a down payment.
Maybe I need to start to live my life like I want to own a home someday.
I had two TiVo dreams. In the first dream TiVo was having a convention. TiVo had taken all of the employees to a resort hotel. TiVo had invited the families of all the employees to come along. My Parents came to the resort. The TiVo parties were going on throughout the hotel. My parents and I sat down in the only empty restaurant. We waited for other people from TiVo to join us. My sister Dot got there a little while later. I could not get my family and the people from TiVo into the same room. They just stayed in different rooms.
In my other dream a layoff was coming. I knew it, but I was not sure who else knew it. It got to the end of the day and they still did not have the meeting. Everyone in the company was loaded onto buses. We were told that we are going to an overnight meeting. The buses too us to a hotel. All of the employees where in a room together. JR was leading the meeting. We were doing things like, "Name ten things that remind you of band camp." It was like we were going to have one last fun time before we got laid off.
I had a San Jose/Work/things From My Past dream this weekend. In the dream Ficomp had moved to San Jose. Ficomp was the last company I worked for before I left the Philadelphia area. Their new building in San Jose was only a few blocks from where I live now. My old boss invited me over to show me the new building. at the end of the tour of the new building my old boss showed me a room that they were looking to rent out as an apartment. It was on the second floor of the building. It was the only room on the second floor.
I learned that the controller from Ficomp would be my official landlord. He was the person I would give the rent checks to. The rent on this apartment was really low. It was half what I am paying now. It was a two bedroom apartment and larger what I am living in now. The one bed room had three sets of bunkbeds in it. It was a great looking apartment. The odd thing was that the apartment had no kitchen. The only way I could cook was to get a microwave.
I looked around the apartment and realized that I would be letting the people from Ficomp back into my life if I moved back into this apartment. I would have an outside entrance to my apartment, but I knew the people from Ficomp would always be in my apartment. My life would be attached to them again. That would be harder then moving to a new apartment.
I have just updated the rest of my web site. I have updated the Web According to Bill Gates page. I got ride of the broken links and the link that had changed to a porn site. I have also added the Senseless Banter Web Hall of Fame. The Hall of Fame still needs some work, but I published it anyway.
I have a also made a couple other smaller changes to my web site. I am trying hard to make my web page worth reading.
Yesterday I talked to my friend Cathy about the dream in my last post. She asked me what did I think it means. I told here that I am never good at figuring out my own dreams. This is what I always tell people. I try a hard to remember my dream and write them down. I do not try to figure out what my dreams mean. The number of things a dream might mean is just too large for me to understand.
Cathy said that she thinks the dream has a pretty simple meaning. She thinks it means I am homesick, I hate my job, and that I need a date. Personally I do not think it is that easy. I think there is more to this dream. I think that I am homesick, but I do not want to leave my job behind me. I want to find someway to stay at TiVo and move back home.
I think she is write about the date part of dream. It has been a long time since I have had a date. Whenever I had a love dream, I am always a little depressed. The woman from that dream was not a real woman. When I dream about a fictional woman, I always wonder why I cannot find a woman like that. When I dream about a women I really know I am sad because I know she does not feel that way in the real world.
I had a dream about work last night. In the dream my company was taking to Pennsylvania. My parents had decided to throw a reception at a house they had just moved into. In the dream the house was just down the street from where my parents live in real life. I spent most of my time at the reception just looking around my parents' new house. It seemed very small. I noticed that it only had two bedrooms. That means that I could not move back into my parents house. My sister Kathy was living in that other bedroom.
TiVo had hired an event coordinator for the retreat. I was standing in my parents bedroom and she walked in. We were away from all the other people at the reception. The event was about five foot ten, round face, glasses. She has long light brown hair. There was a good vibe between us as we talked. I took the chance and kissed her on the lips. After the kiss she was flustered. She said something about it not being the right time or place for that. I told here that I just wanted to take a chance. Then she kissed me back. It was a long kiss. I looked at the doorway and there were a bunch of people looking at us. The people were the people of my same level from work. They started to make fun of me right away. I moved so the event coordinator would not see the people from TiVo.
