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Friday, April 25, 2003

I will shout until they know what I mean

This is currently one of my favorite musical quotes. It is from a Neutral Milk Hotel song The King of Carrot Flowers Part 3. I want to link this quote to Sad Salvation. I want this to be the attitude that I take with Sad Salvation. I do not think I am doing this right now. I do not think I am shouting loud enough. I do not think I am trying to be understood. Maybe I need to make myself understand first.

Labels: blog, music, Neutral Milk Hotel, quote, sadsalvation, self

- Rich, 5:25 PM

Thursday, April 24, 2003

Coffee House

Coffee House

I am currently sitting in the Mission City Coffee Roasting Co. I am here for the free wireless internet access. I have net access at my apartment. I have everything I need at my apartment, but I am still here. I am here because I seem to get more done here. I seem to be able to write here. I seem to be able to get things done here.

I have too many distractions at my apartment. It is a wonderland of geek toys. I have at least 10 or 20 ways to waste time. I could spend days at a time watching DVDs, or TV, or listening to music. I need to be able to focus more when I am at my apartment.

Labels: Coffee house, internet, self

- Rich, 6:59 PM

Wednesday, April 23, 2003

IM Relationship

As I start this net relationship, I have noticed that I have spent a lot of time IM'ing Tara. It seems to just click. I have not been using instant messager for that long, but I have really enjoyed it. There seems to be something very enjoyable about using IM. It is very quick and snappy. The feedback if very quick. Unlike e-mail, you usually do not hit a snag and get hung up some where.

I am not sure what he weak points of using IM. I do not know what mistakes I might be making. I wonder if I will find them over time.

- Rich, 9:30 PM

Tuesday, April 22, 2003

Travel-blogue Albuquerque - Home

In the Oakland airport, I saw the oddest thing. There was a woman waiting outside of security with a dozen roses. She had the most unenthused look on her face. I have seen people in airports with flowers before. Most of the time they are happy or anxious. Some times the people look worried or like they are trying to figure out that first moment out in their head.

The woman looked like she was dreading the future. She looked like she would rather be any place in the world but there. She looked like she had a stomich full of rocks. I wanted to stand and stare at her. I wanted to wait behind her and see who she was going to give these flowers to. I knew that I would not have a chance to do this.

I just cannot figure out why she would be there with flowers. Was she waiting for her mother and she also had a level of dread. Was she waiting for a lover she did not really love. Was she doing this for someone else who could not be there? I guess I will never know the answer to this story.

- Rich, 8:58 PM

Travel-blogue Albuquerque - Flying back

I cannot stop thinking about 12 Monkeys and SARS. Right now I am on a flight from Albuquerque to Oakland. The whole time I was in Albuquerque my nose was been running. Now on the flight I wonder if anyone else is thinking about me. I have been sneezing a lot and using a lot of tissues. I wonder if anyone is on edge because of this. Looking around, I do not notice anyone looking at me funny. I always want to know if I am inspiring fear.

- Rich, 7:15 PM

Monday, April 21, 2003

Travel-blogue Albuquerque - Social

I wonder if I do not socialize enough while I am visiting here. Almost everyone from my department comes to Albuquerque. All of them have these stories about going out on the town and drinking. I usually just go out to dinner after work. When dinner is over I go back to the hotel. I guess I feel that I am just here to work. After doing a couple of training classes I am usually drained. I guess I have to come here with other people from the office.

Labels: travel, travelogue, work

- Rich, 7:05 PM

Sunday, April 20, 2003

Travel-blogue Albuquerque - Place

What does place mean? How many times to you have to go to a place before you connect to it? Can you connect to a place if you never live there? How much do you need to understand about a place before you connect with it?

These are a lot of my typical questions. I am back in Albuquerque for the second time this year. It is the fourth time I have traveled here for business. Every time I come here I have a different experience. Every time I see a little different part of the city.

All of this makes me think about how many times I have visited places. How many times have I spent the night in different cities? I made a list of the cities I have visited at least twice and how many nights I have spent there. I have excluded the places where I have ever lived. This is a list I made off the top of my head.

Some of these cities are places that I feel I understand. Other cities are places I barely know. I am not sure what makes these places different from each other or what connects me to them. I know this list says more about the people I have known then the person I am. I still think it connects to the person I am.


Albuquerque (4)
San Diego (5)
Pittsburgh (5)
Seattle (3)
Richmond (7)
Oak Ridge (5)
Kettering, OH (7)
Dewey Beach, DE (6)
Chicago (2)
State College (6)
Harrisburg (2)
Washington (2)
Fairfax, VA (6)
Atlanta (2)
Baltimore (6)

- Rich, 7:27 PM

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