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Saturday, April 19, 2003

Private Life of A Blogger Pt 2

The woman I mentioned earlier now reading Sad Salvation. I invited her to read it. We have talked about truth and honesty. To be honest you really need the other person to know the whole truth. I am making a full effort to share things with her. Part of that full effort was telling her about Sad Salvation.

One issue is now she has an advantage. She just learned a lot about me. More then I have learned about her so far. I know that I will have to work hard to find out some of those things about here.

The other issue is her reading something that I do not remember writing. This might lead her to assume something about me that I do not have in my head currently. She might think of me in a way that I am not aware of. This is a hard idea for me.

The good thing is that she has read my weblog and she still willing to go on another date with me. I am happy to know she did not learn anything that knocked me right out of the running. She is still willing to try to build a relationship. Who knows, it might have helped me.

I am still wondering if I should give her a moniker or if I should use her name when I write about her. What does everyone thing?

- Rich, 2:50 PM |

Friday, April 18, 2003

San Jose Development

As long as I have been living in Downtown San Jose, they have been building the New Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. Library. I have lived in my apartment building for more then two years. For more then 18 months this building was just a hole in the ground. I wondered if it was ever going to be built. This building started going up when dot.coms were good companies to work at.

Now it is almost finished. I will be happy once it is open. I cannot wait to get the chance to go into this building. I want to take some pictures of me standing in the windows of the higher floors. This place will be great.

- Rich, 8:19 AM |

Thursday, April 17, 2003

Portland Chill

A year ago I was on vacation in Portland. I was kicking around the Rose City trying to find if my heart was still there. I learned that things might be as green as you remember, but they might not be as good. This year I am working hard and trying to find my next vacation. With as hard as thinks have been on the job, I wish I was just kicking it in P-Town. I am planning to go to Arizona for vacation. What will I find when I go there?

- Rich, 12:44 AM |

Private Life of A Blogger

I read a lot of blogs of people who write about their love life. They put some intimate details on their pages. I know that love and relationships are prime sources for web writing. It is such an important part of life, how could people not write about it. How someone reacts to love and relations is one of the measures of them as a human being.

I have problems writing about these kinds of things for my blog. I know that I want to be public in Sad Salvation. I never know who might read it. A long time ago I decided that I wanted people who know me to read it. I know that has resulted in my censor myself in the past.

So, I am trying to start a relationship with a woman. From time to time I think there is something that happens that I think might be interesting to write about. There are moments that might say something larger about my life. I think these moments might be cool to write about.

The problem is that I do not know how she might take it. I am not sure how she will view my writing. I know it is easy to misunderstand my writing. I am not always great at getting my point across. She might be upset because other people might know I am writing about here. She might see a moment that happened as something that should just be between us.

I am not sure how I will approach this. This relationship has not gone very far yet. I am not sure she has even read Sad Salvation yet. I am not sure he knows what writing means to me. I know I have to talk to her about it. Even if I talk to her about it, she still might not understand.

Are there lines that I should and should not cross? Is there any good way to find out what those lines are?

- Rich, 12:31 AM |

Wednesday, April 16, 2003

Coffee House Notes

There is a woman on one the couch that is sleeping. Every time I look at her she is asleep. It is not like she is a homeless woman. She looks to be one of the students from the college across the street. I am not sure why someone would come to a coffee house to catch a nap. All I can think is that she is not getting long with her roommate(s).

- Rich, 6:39 PM |

X-Spot me out of here

I cannot use the Internet connection at the coffee house I am sitting in right now. I was here before with my PC and I could log on. With my Mac, I cannot log onto the network. This would not be so bad if the coffee house was not in Cupertino, Apple’s hometown. There is just something wrong with it.

Whenever I come here, I always sit next to two guys working on their start up. This is the only place in all of Silicon Valley I ever run into this. This proves to me that there are still startups happening. The problem is I can tell these guys are talking about something like chip manufacturing. Something I know nothing about and I know I could not work at a company doing that.

The problem is that these guys are so loud I have to turn my headphones up extra loud to drown them out. I really want to turn my headphones down, but I know these guys will distract me.

In a couple of hours there will be a Blogger meet-up here. I got here early because I came right from work. I also know that I would not get anything done if I went back to my apartment. I would waste these two hours instead of using them to write. Here I will have the chance to get something done. The problem now is that I will have to keep it on my desktop and post it later.

- Rich, 4:29 PM |

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

Fix it Damnit

My blog had been acting funny ever since the weekend. I had edited the template while I was using my iBook. Something I did screwed it up. Thanks to the power of copy and past and a not deleting e-mail messages, I was able to fix it. This makes me happy. I never figured out what was broken, but I got it back to a useable state. There is nothing that is as bad for my motivation to write as no good way to publish.

- Rich, 11:34 PM |

Interview Questions

There are some things you can ask in an interview and some things you cannot. I know why this is, but is seems like an odd idea. I know why people need to be able to keep their life apart from their job. It just seems like my job knows everything about my life anyway.

- Rich, 9:40 AM |

Monday, April 14, 2003

Getting F's in $

We are failing when it comes to Financial Literacy. I have to say that I might be getting a D when it comes to money matters. It is just something I do not like to keep in my mental space. It makes me feel like I am not being materialistic. I know that is not true.

The funny thing is that we are bad at this, but we are still the richest nation in the world. I wonder if there is a link here.

- Rich, 11:28 AM |

I am not sure that is what the Play in Playstation stands for

In college we talked a lot about the idea of Teledildonics, but I have not heard about it much since then. I am happy there is finally a playstation game that addresses this need. Hopefully we can get a version released in the US.

- Rich, 12:02 AM |

Sunday, April 13, 2003

Test Test

Blogger seems to be a little odd right now. This is supposed to test if the publishing is working. I can only see my latests posts at any one time.

- Rich, 11:44 AM |

Time is not my friend Pt. 2

A friend of mine just got laid off again. I was telling here how I felt that time is not my friend. She told me that I just have to put more effort into it. The last time she was laid off she had the same problem. She went out and bought a wristwatch. She was surprised how much better she managed her time when it was right there on her wrist. It was almost like she owned it.

I have not warn a wristwatch since college. I am not a big fan of jewelry. I do not like having things around my wrist, especially while I am typing. I am not sure if this would work for me or not. I know that I do need a better respect for time.

This time she went out and bought a new watch. It was her reward for working for all those months. Now, while she looks for a new job, she will use her time well. She will write, paint, read, and make time for herself. She says the watch itself helps her keep away from time sucks. It sounds like a good plan to me.

- Rich, 11:10 AM |

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