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Saturday, October 19, 2002

Lets Get Ready to Rumble!

At work there are a lot of e-mail messages that go out to "all." One class of these messages have to do with fitness and physical activity. The messages ask us to join Softball team, play basketball at lunch, or start a new yoga class. I would guess this is typical of any work place with more the 200 people. I would think most people find this apropeate.

Recently an e-mail went out asking people to join a "Hard Contact Fight Club." The basic idea is this is a bunch of guys that are bored by watching TV. From the look of it, they might be bored by just going to the gym also. I understand that. It has always been hard for me to go to the gym for no reason. It is hard to tell if this is a gag or not. The e-mail that went around with it makes it seem real, but when I see the Super Hero page, I have to wonder.

I want to ridicule this so much. I want to make fun of the guys for doing something stupid with their bodies. The web page and the message that was sent out seem silly. There is something about this that makes me hold back. There is something about all this appeals to me. I miss hard horse play. I miss having the chance to throw my body around. Because of my weight, I cannot horse play with people. I feel that I have too great of a chance to hurt them. This might be a way to get that agression out at the right place.

I have never been the type of person who can modivate myself to work out. This might be the kind of thing that would modivate me. I know that I am crazy for even thinking about it. It is still buzzing in my head for some reason.

- Rich, 11:44 AM |

Friday, October 18, 2002

Tux

I have my tuxedo for Steve's wedding. Renting a tux for someone my weight is a stressful event. There is only one tux that comes in my size. At any moment I am waiting to here them say there is something I cannot get in my size. I am waiting for someone to break the whole deal. After no one breaks the deal, I feel a little better.

I still am a little worried about how I will look in the Tux. I know that Steve and La do not care. They are happy to have me in the wedding. I just wish that I could have a better look. I will try to post a picture of me in the tux.

- Rich, 7:34 AM |

Thursday, October 17, 2002

Company Picnic

We just had our company picnic. I know that most companies have these picnics in the summer, but we are not like most companies. It is strange that we had our company picnic on a Thursday. Most times you have them on the weekend. It was also strange that we did not have any beer at our picnic. TiVo parties are usually good for a couple of beers. It had to do with the park we had it.

One of our VPs started a wiffle ball game. A lot of the people who played in this game were at the executive level of the company. It was fun, but odd. The game was very competitive. The executives really wanted their team to win. There was also a lot of trash talking going on. It was odd to me because I do not interact with the executives all that often. Many of them know me, but I do not feel like I have any relationship with most of them.

The game got rough after a few innings. There was base stealing in wiffle ball. That is really unheard of. There were even a few collisions at the plate. I am surprised that no one got hurt. If someone did, it would have been a company event no one would ever forget.

The best thing about this picnic was that people had the chance to lighten up. People do not get that chance often enough. I think that these moments are key top keeping TiVo the kind of company we love. I wonder how long these events will last.

- Rich, 7:38 PM |

Wednesday, October 16, 2002

Darkness and Light

I was talking with DD at lunch today. We were talking about light and dark sides of ourselves. DD is an undying optimist. He thinks that things are generally good and will generally turn out well. I get to hear some of his doubts and hang ups, but there are not many.

I told him that I have a real darkside. There are things in me that are really not that pleasant. He was surprised that I think this of myself. He thinks that I am usually a pretty up and happy person. I think he looks down on people that have too dark of an outlook on life. In his eyes, they make themselves unhappy.

I think DD sees me this way because when I am given a choice, I choose to be happy. I choose to do things that will be good for me in the end. If I have the choice to be with people, I usually take it. I try not to lock myself away. I have seen people who choose the dark things. I know that I could be that way, but I fight not to be.

- Rich, 11:24 PM |

Tuesday, October 15, 2002

01001100011011110111011001100101 Spells Love

I am thinking for ideas just in case I decided to write a novel during National Novel Writing Month. (Too bad I will miss the kickoff party because of Steve's Wedding.) Here are the ideas I have so far:

Dating in Silicon Valley

Angry loner thinks he can see the end of the world

Sci-Fi space opera about salvage ship

Sci-Fi space opera about seeding other planets with human life

X-Files type of detective conspiracy book

Customer Support and the bottom of the boom

Tell me if you think any of these would make a good book or if you think they would be easy to write.

- Rich, 2:48 PM |

Monday, October 14, 2002

National Give It Back Day

I saw signs for National Give It Back Day around Santa Clara Univ. The signs just had the date and the web address. I was trying to figure out what this was all about. I thought it was some kind of liberal movement.

I get back home and look at the web site. I find out it is the day we are supposed to give things back that we borrowed and forgot about. It is a really interesting idea. I will have to take part in it next year. For now I am going to hold on to W's copy of Story.

- Rich, 12:07 AM |

Sunday, October 13, 2002

Dating and MS Project

It has been so long since I successfully dated anyone, I am not sure I know how to do it. I feel that I am really unsure about the flow of the whole thing. I am not sure when I should be making moves and when I should just letting things flow. I know that I have messed up relationships in the past by going to quickly or to slowly. I wish I could figure out this pace.

What I really want is a project manager to use MS Project to help me schedule this out. I want to see that calendar chart so I know where I stand. I could see the little arrows and little graphs. I could sit down and figure which milestones that I was not meeting. Maybe I could even have a bug council so I can right my wrongs. These are all very Silicon Valley idea.

How would you feel if the person you were dating was using MS Project to manage the relationship?

- Rich, 8:42 PM |

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